From now on this journal is FRIEND LOCKED. Comment on this post if you want to be added, please no random adds say were you saw me or if we have stuff in common. Assholes, homophobics, preachers, crazy stalker nutters are NOT welcome. Apart from that:-

I feel like a bit of an idiot asking this, but can someone tell me how to friend lock my journal?

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Thank you to everyone who wished me luck today on my last post, made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside :) You guys are brill.

I think the interview went alright and when i talked to my stepmum after she said i answered all the questions correctly , because she works in the shop next door. The interview was for a very popular clothes shop here in the UK, it would look great on my CV lol. If i've got a job i should here back by the end of the week! My phone is now glued to my hand, waiting for it to ring lol.

I just got soaked walking home in the rain and now i'm all warm and cozy sitting by the fire with blankets and lots of pillows *happy sigh* AND i get a lie in tomorrow as college doesn't start till 11  :)

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I have a job interview tomorrow! Go me! I really hope i get it!

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I really need to stop talking to B, my friend still really likes him and i've heard some other girl called Anna does to. When my friend found out that this Anna liked him shes seriously upset and annoyed at her and now scared that they'll end up going out, so am i, but i can't really tell her that, grrr.

I'm not going to be the girl that goes out (well i doubt he actually likes me back, but flirts) with one of her good friends ex, who she still likes.

Also he's keeping me up all night (not in that way! lol) for the last two nights we've been texting till about 3 in the morning.

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I'm better now YAY! I slept through Psycology though yesterday and had to rush to get the train in time for History class, which was totally pointless anyway as we (including the teacher) ended up talking about transport in London, the local strip clubs and orgies. I think i might just fail History.

I saw my little sister for the first time in like two weeks today, because i'm currently living with my dad to make it easier to get to school and back. I didn't notice how much i miss her, shes entertaining to have around, and she's staying the night too. Which is normally interesting as shes a sleep talker.

I'm going to the cinema to see Tropic Thunder next week woop.

And it's nearly Christmas YAY WOOO YIPEEEEE!  Seriously i went shopping on Thursday all the shops have xmas decorations for sale, i CANNOT WAIT!! I love Christmas :-D  


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I'm ill :(

I've been applying for lots of part time jobs today, some xmas temps and some perm, *fingers crossed* that  i get a job, i need some money! Saw these really nice boots today £30 and this gorge leather jacket i would actually kill for right now also £30.

Now i'm going to curl up in my bed and not come out till my nose decides to stop running and me throat stops feeling like sandpaper.

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I WANT TO BE SKINNY!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Seriosuly i need to loose weight, i've ben fat all my life and THIS is IT. I CANNOT be like this any longer! Not only do i feel shit about my body and have no self esteem, but I'M SOOO UNHEALTHY!  GRRRRRR I'm so frustrated with myself.

Seriously. I needed to get that of my chest.

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Things are pretty cool right now :-) I'm staying at my Dads house for a bit because it generally makes life easier traveling to school and back. And my scooter arrived today, it's BRIGHT YELLOW! I'm totally in love with it, it's just made of awesomeness, i won't be able to ride it for another week yet though (gotta get it registered and number plates and all that shiz) so i'm just going to have to sit in the garage and pretend to ride it for a bit. :-)

Schools good (for now that wont last long never does!) i'm meeting some pretty cool people right now and some of my new friends are seriously fab. I still have a bit of homework i really should do it :-/

I really feel the need for a boyfriend right now :-( I know i shouldn't and i can be happy with a boyfriend and all that, but i just want a relasionship at the moment, i want that connection and someone who cares about what i'm doing evreyday :-( My parents are so wrapped up with their own problems i feel a little unloved right now :-(
I'm seeing B (that's what the guy i like will be know as on here) not till November 25th!! SERIOUSLY DOES THAT WANT TO BE ANY FURTHER AWAY!!?? I'm talking to him on msn now though, i really wish i could find out if he like me in THAT way :-/    and he's one of my friends (a close one) ex (yer im braking unwritten rules here) and i need to know if she still likes him!!! grr.

God listen to all the angst! hahah i'm not miserable honest!

For some reason my eye really hurts right now :-/

And LJ seriously needs SMILIES!

I hate using my funny :-) and :-/  and :-(

:-)

LOL!

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I'm borrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddddddddddddd!

I feel really like blank right now, i don't now how to explain it i'm just like blah, it might be because i've had a serious lack of sleep these last two weeks.

Today was pretty cool though, Psychology this morning was uber boring and i had to fight to not fall asleep. Then errm i sort of bunked my second lesson becauase we all went to the wrong room and then couldn't be bothered to find the right one so we went and sat around in the canteen for 2 hours, but i did manage to get some homework done in that time. Then me and the girls went to watch the boys play football ;-) and one of them took his top of, he isn't my type he's a little skinny indy boy, but he had some pretty cool tattoos and let me play with his nipple piercing lool.
Then a few of us went of to have a smoke and the fire alarm went of (not because of us though!) , which meant all 3000 students had to try and cram in the car park inbetween all the cars- because some dumbass set that as the assembly point. I endend up sitting on top of a friends car lol. I made it to the last half of History though which was actually not to bad. Then i got let out early, came home and layed around surfing the net!

:-)

So overall a pretty cool day!

And yesterday someone put their arm through a window at school, and everyone thought someone had jumped out!

Hehe, i'm really rambling now!

Hmm i have a bit of homework this weekend, just some Law and some revision for a Psychology test on Monday.

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No one i know was at the supermarket when the armed robbery happened, so thankfully everyone i know is fine. Two people were shot one a security guy and a customer who tried to to help, their both in hospital, i hope they are ok.

gosh, lots of drama happening at the moment, my dads van got hit, my cousins acting like a bitch towards me and i don't know why, my friends boyfriend keeps pretending to be her on her msn to check up to see if shes cheating (he's a tad insecure) and generally lots going on at the mo.

And this morning me train was delayed and some drunk old women came and started telling me her life story and stroking my knee   =/   so i like had to pretend i was going to use the toilet on the train so i could go sit in another part of the train lol.

I'm really tired, and i need to wash my hair but cba to drag myself upstairs at the moment.

Today i was wondering what it would be like to be a mute. I might try it for  a few days sometime, just for the experiance ya know. And hey might be interesting :-)


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I'm staying at my dads this week but i've just gone on msn and found out theres been an armed robbery at the supermarket where i live and its right by my house and  people were shot, and i thankfully got hold of my mum, but i cant get hold of my best friend whos mum works there.

I can't beleive this, i live in a tiny village ffs, stuff like this never happens.

My phone has broke :-(

Which is annoying, along with the fact that i have homework this weekend.

But aside from that, i'm happy right now, schools going ok, i have new friends, and me and my mum are getting along.

It's all good in my hood ;-)


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Wow, i'm really rubbishing at commenting, sorry folks! I will try to do more.

School is great, i made some pretty cool friends (or atleast a group of girls i went with at lunch and break) who all seem pretty cool. Lessons are fine, apart from i don't really like my English teacher she just goes from nice and calm to SCREAMING MAD BITCH in like 0.02 seconds.

This year i'm taking:
Physchology (which i can't spell yet)
History
English Lit
Law

I really want to drop one though because i have to travel far and it's killing me getting up this early and travelling, if i dropped one subject i might be a little less stressed and have less work to cope with, giving me more time to sleep.

It's costing me £11 for the train each day :-(  it's soo expensive. I could buy like a pair of shoes for that.

Gossip Girl is awesome at the moment, completly love that show.

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K well just got back from first day back at school.

It was Ok, just got a tonne of information and out timetables, i made friends with 3 girls, their pretty cool. Theres 2 really bitchy girls in my form that just bitched about EVREYONE in the room, i really had to bite my tounge.

I'm so so so tired i am about ready to callopse.

Will post more tommorow.

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I just had one of them moments when you realise, like just how much you like someone.

Omg i hate this, i hate falling for boys, i hate feeling this vunrable.



He's my friends ex, i've just relised i seriously fancy my friends ex. I DON'T DO THIS. I barely fall for boys, let alone one of my good friends ex's.

and she (his ex) just told me he said he missed me the other day, and it hit me just how much i miss him, and i'm barely, maybe never going to see him much now.

shit.

K well that writing every thing that i eat is so not going to work, cos i don't come on here every single day lol.

I'm staying at my dads tonight and we watched Finding Nemo earlier, i love that film <3 Especially Dory speaking whale, so so funny.

It really annoys me that they don't show shows like Americas Next Top Model and Gossip Girl over here in England sooner, because watching them online with japanese subtitles is not so great. I feel really bad for the Transexual (i think her name was isla?) in ANTM some of the girls are so bitchy about her and she seems a pretty nice person!

School starts again on Monday, i'm starting to get a bit nervous now because i'm going to a new school than last year. Luckily i now one or two people who are going there to so i won't be completely by myself at lunch on my first day!!

Yer and that's pretty much all i have to say right now!

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Hmph. I'm a bit depressed right now, in March i had lost 2 stone, now i've put it all back on and it really hit me when i went shopping earlier, and you know when your trying on loads of clothes and NOTHING fits, well i feel awful now. And i don't know whats wrong with me becuase i want to loose weight so bad, and i know i need to, but for some reason i just can't find the motivation right now. Then this leads to comfort eating, and generally i'm just feeling a little unhappy with myself right now for letting myself put the weight back on when i got down to a size i was happy with before. I'm dissapointed in myself.

And i know looks aren't evreything, but at the moment it's making me unhappy and uncomfortable.

So from now on as a motivation to eat healthy i'm going to put evreything i eat each day on here (under a cut so no-one has to read it- cos how boring! lol) and all the exercise i have done to, to try and motivate me to do some, so it don't look bad on here!

And i'm rambling and stuff, because i'm dead tired right now.


( 1st Sept- Food and Exercise for the Day )
In other news- i've been practicing with my liquid eyeliner on my eyelid, i'm getting slightly better at doing it now, i just need the line to go thinner.

And i made a penguin out of playdo stuff earlier then put it the oven so it went hard, it's quite good. I may post a picture of it, just for fun. My sister named it Roxy.

Night night!

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I was tagged by sh0tglass  wooo!


Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names & why you chose them. You can't tag a person who has tagged you.



1) I have been a vegetarian for 6 years, and plan to be for the rest of my life.

2) I never wear plain socks, i don't own any! They all have patterns on are brightly coloured or stripey.

3) Sometimes when i feel really inspired, i write, its more of a hobby than something i take seriously.

4) I am terriable at maths, and spelling, despite the fact i read a lot.

5) I'm atheist.

6) I hate bananas.

7) I love watching disney films!

8) My favourite drink is (double) archers and lemonade, but i also couldn't live without coffee.

9) I have no idea what i want to do with my life, i'm just seeing were it takes me!

10) My life aim is to one day visit America.


I tag-
checkeredcat 
cinnamonlspider 
hiipster 
iwenthome 
moonbunnies 
peanup 
pirateisapirate 
soaddictivexxxx 
turnitmyway 
xhayleeee 

Don't feel like you have to do it, i just picked random people of my friend list!

I finally went to the gym today! woo go me, and it felt really good actually! I done 1 whole hour!
And this morning i got my ticket so i can now OFFICALLY drive an electric scooter!! YAY! I had to go out on the roads for a two hour ride IN THE RAIN to pass, it was really scary but after a while it was ok. Although the instructor made me wear this waterproof leggings because of the rain and boy did i look stupid, but it was worth it.
This is the scooter my dad ordered for me, i LOVE IT!
http://www.mopeds.co.uk/50cc-sports-scooter-p-29.html?colour=6
I origanally wanted a retro style one, but they are a bit too pricey at the moment.

I'm really happy today!! :-)  And i'm feeling strangely confident, like i could do anything! It's rather cool.

Oh apart from my nan got rushed to hospital the other night because she was struggleing to breathe, she had evreyone worrying for a bit but turns out it's just a chest infection, thankfully. 

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:-)

OMG my hands are actually killing me. I just done 4 hours of training so i could pass a test to ride an electric scooter thing, it is soo much harder than i expected it to be, and my little hands have a lot of trouble reaching the brakes which you have to pull A LOT! I've got to go back sunday to do more training then go on a two hour ride on the roads, which i am actually terrified about.

I haven't been very productive lately, i've done pretty much nothing these last four days, so after i've rested for a bit ( i had to get up at 7 for this training thing) i'm going to try and do a few things of my to do list-


My to do list woohoo! :-

1)Tidy very messy room.
2)Have a few calls i need to make to various people.
3) GO TO THE GYM!!! Haven't been in like 2 weeks oops.

Think that's it for the mean time.

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